rendang.

"tahap mana kita ini selayaknya makan yang buruk²".

my heart aches really bad.

sometimes i felt like quitting and stopping.

i'm really tired.

solitude

people don't seem to understand when i start distancing myself.

i'm not in my bad mood. i just want to be alone. i get it, sometimes i can be a bit louder than usual, or be loud in general. that doesn't mean like i am always up for mingling 24/7. i do get tired with human interaction too. so i'll go quiet for a day or two. or sometimes 3 days. i swear there is nothing personal, i just want to be left alone. please don't come for me asking if i am not okay. i appreciate my time alone as much as i enjoy my time with people. it's a healing process for me. people should try it too, it's healthy.

2 cents

no wonder people go quieter over time because the more you explain the more people refuse to understand. it's such a shame being born in a cognitive dissonance generations. we refuse to perceive new information as it is. we are alarmed with differences as if we are all made to be equal in everything. we are so caught up in our own belief on certain things, when it happens in other way around we are so alarmed with new information and perceive it as a threat.

what the hell the world has got us into. what is even wrong with differences. i know myself as a human i am unable to tolerate everything in front of me, but people need to stop talking bad about other people just because we're not on the same page.

we have been taught with "my opinion is truer than you so i am wiser. my beliefs is way better than yours so you better shut up".

when can we stop